Most of the data in this world is stored alphabetically, and this practice starts right from our school attendance. Thanks to my name, I was always the first from the last to answer the attendance and this made me feel like a laggard, and I had to sit in the last row in all examinations without proper light or fan. Teas and biscuits will be distributed to all in the hall as I was the last in the big hall, by the time the tea master reaches my place all biscuit packets would have been emptied…..
In everything and everywhere I was the last… and I developed a feeling that my name is going to keep me away from all good things in life….in fact I developed an inferiority complex that students named with first letters like A, B, C… are so brilliant and will be successful in their lives…..and I was not destined to be so… that is when I decided to research more on the same…
Have you ever asked yourself, "What does your name mean??” Most people have some idea of the meaning of their name or whom they were named after. I was so frustrated with the trouble my name caused me, and I decided to confront my father with the same. I asked him why he had named me Vinodhini and made me miss all my biscuits and tea.... To my extreme consternation, he only seemed amused at my predicament. He explained that when I was 2 months old… my umpteen number of relatives came up with umpteen names, and I looked back only when my aunt called me Vinodhini…Vinodhini….Vinodhini…. Sentimentally, its goddess Meenakshi’s name, and being the first girl child my parents decided the same name for me…
I was curious to know the other options that were considered and asked him what were the other names those were tried by other relatives….he fanatically said a list of names like Palani ammal (my grand mother’s name) and Meena Lochani...Oh! Thanks God for keeping me so primed at that point that not to turn to other names. It is better that Iam called Vinodhini than Loshini or Palani ammal! It’s better to be last in the class than to be a laughing stock.
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Once in college I got a beautiful birthday wish with a message from one of my classmate. Applying phonetics and Tamil to my name he had written ‘’WE KNOW THEEEE NEE” I asked him, why is it so, he replied that, he always could find a fire within me as an urge to learn things and with full of determination to achieve the goals. I had a sleepless night after that…..my thoughts worried me thinking …. Do I really stand to the meaning of my name?
The next day I searched for the exact meaning of my name …. I found in a book that Vinodhini stands for a LOTUS. I started comparing myself to a lotus…..I remember that’s when I decided to live up to my name…..
All the lotuses I observed enjoyed the company of water lilies. The lotuses were able to take advantage of these water lilies for upward orientation even if they are crowded on the surface of the water. By seeing this I understood, “The art of living lies less in eliminating our troubles than in growing with them." and also “Everything that irritates about others is for the true understanding of self”
“The lotus is often viewed as a symbol of aspirations to rise towards the light”. Like sunlight which makes lotus to bloom, it’s always friends and well wishers’ support is making to unfold the talents of this lotus (me)....
Whenever I see a lotus I feel as if she says to me,” You can be in the worst conditions possible; much like me, but with considerable growth and determination you can get to the top of the world and become something more than what you were born into. You can become the beautiful, successful "flower" at the top of your pond.” … what it represents is beauty and success.
I also learnt that we are named not only for individual recognition but also to live up to the name… as great people’s names are still remembered not because of their names and its spellings it’s just the way they lead their life. “we must live as we think; otherwise we shall end up by thinking as we have lived." now days I think I was born to live up to the meaning of my name for my next generations to keep saying it, so do me….